The year that was….
This year is coming to an end, with a promise of bringing in a new one…
As work life slows down at this time, given almost every third person is away on holidays, my idle grey cells (whatever little are left now) become active…. trying to reflect on how this year went by…
I have done this routine for a no. of years now, all though am putting it out for the first time, but this time it feels very different.
The year 2010 did bring in one word in bold lettering…. change….
I am not alien to the challenges of change, yet somehow am particularly reticent about the overall changes in this year. Why ? I ask myself… trying to understand this confusion.
Maybe I am getting old 
Or maybe, I just need to shake myself up and count the no. of new things I got to do this year…. tried out new food, new places, high speed taxi on a collision course experience (at least I thought this was it at the time), new cultures, new friends, new languages and a ride through amazing highs and deep lows….
I learnt a whole lot about myself, others around me and stuff…. like creating a website, new tricks on powerpoint, designing ideas, new catch phrases to use and stuff. Had a lot of fun through it as well….
I missed a few things in the year as well…. like health, play, taking a real break, letting my hair down and believing enough.
Lets not do a mathematical tabulation to arrive at a profit / loss statement for the year, or I will start feeling miserable again… and that is probably where the crux lies.
Crux lies in not measuring everything in volumes of success, profits, wealth, power, knowledge, control….. Crux lies in not running flat out…. Crux lies in not planning, prioritizing, negotiating or implementing all the time…..
I guess it may be true for you as well… when sometimes we focus on a particular sphere of life so much that life gets restricted within. We loose sight of the bigger picture of our lives, our loves, our experiences, our values…. and just focus on that work deadline, that big break at job, that new car or house.. and life goes by…. year on year.
Before this blog becomes a preaching session, I must wrap it up.
I think I have learnt enough of my lessons… and it’s time to move on !!
2011 – here I come.
PS – Will I be doing a similarly confused post around same time next year…. Lets see….
